Wow, what a week. Reece has been sick and we went out of town for 3 days to see Eric's parents before they move to New Jersey. It has been busy. It is hard to find time to focus on being healthy when everything seems busy.
I can't believe it has been a week since I posted on here. I guess it is hard to write after such a wonderful experience at Backyard Burgers.
Well...I made it to 169 this week at my weigh in. I am really excited but I haven't had time to really even think about being proud of myself.
Yesterday on the way home from South Carolina I stopped to get the kids something to eat at a drive thru :( I decided that I would get a small vanilla ice cream cone, it had been a while and I felt ok getting one. Well guess what?? Their darn ice cream machine was broken. Oh my kids thought that was funny.
The kids fell asleep on the way home and I thought I could sneak to Wendy's to get a large frosty without waking them up. I pull up to the drive thru and Reece wakes up and says "Mommy don't do it" It was really funny. Then Eric calls right after Reece tells me not to do it. I figured God was trying to tell me something so I just told the lady never mind about my order. At least this time I didn't order and drive off. I just cancelled.
Oh but don't you worry. I went to Chic-fil-a tonight and their ice cream machine was NOT broken and Reece and Eric were in the car with me, so no interruptions from them.
...a week later from Backyard Burgers I finally ate my ice cream. I guess that isn't too bad.
I've still been running. Eric and I enjoyed a ping pong run together on Friday. Ping pong because we ran in a neighborhood and it felt like we were ping pong balls going up and down every street.
This past week I wasn't too excited about eating healthy. It just wasn't exciting. Maybe I need to switch up what my healthy meals are. I might be getting tired of eating a salad for lunch every day. I need to mix it up some.
Monday, February 6, 2012
Monday, January 30, 2012
I'm Sorry Backyard Burgers
Tonight I finished dinner with some friends, which I was proud that I only ate a house salad and two or three beers. I figured it was an even trade, a full meal for a small salad and beers.
Anyways as I pulled out of my parking spot I was faced with a Goodberrys, Backyard Burgers, and a McDonalds. All of these places have ice cream. All I wanted to do was pull up to one of these places order the biggest ice cream or shake that they had, maybe 2 of them, shove it in my face, and then go home.
I pulled in to Goodberrys and then I drove away. I pulled in to Backyard Burgers...
I reached for my phone. I called two people to talk me out of it and neither one of them answered!! I need different people on my help line :)
The lady came over the loud speaker, "Can I help you?" I wanted to say yes you can help me let me walk in your restaurant and put my mouth underneath the ice cream dispenser and turn that baby on!!
I ordered. Large oreo milkshake. Make that two milkshakes. "Pull around."
I pulled around alright. I pulled all the way through and I didn't stop. I'm sorry Backyard Burgers!! I ordered and then drove off, but it really was for the best. So here I sit dreaming of ice cream.
I decided to ask myself why I wanted to impulse eat. Then I tried to focus in on my thinking about myself throughout the day. I was feeling down today about my left knee really hurting me and it made me feel discouraged. I started telling myself that there was no way that I could do a half marathon if my knee already started hurting me.
That is when I drove away. I drove away from the ice cream because I was wanting to overeat due to the negative thinking. I actually was able to stop and think about it. Now don't get me wrong I am going to "plan" an ice cream outing in the next week or so and I can't wait! I'm glad I had self-control tonight and decided to drive away.
Anyways as I pulled out of my parking spot I was faced with a Goodberrys, Backyard Burgers, and a McDonalds. All of these places have ice cream. All I wanted to do was pull up to one of these places order the biggest ice cream or shake that they had, maybe 2 of them, shove it in my face, and then go home.
I pulled in to Goodberrys and then I drove away. I pulled in to Backyard Burgers...
I reached for my phone. I called two people to talk me out of it and neither one of them answered!! I need different people on my help line :)
The lady came over the loud speaker, "Can I help you?" I wanted to say yes you can help me let me walk in your restaurant and put my mouth underneath the ice cream dispenser and turn that baby on!!
I ordered. Large oreo milkshake. Make that two milkshakes. "Pull around."
I pulled around alright. I pulled all the way through and I didn't stop. I'm sorry Backyard Burgers!! I ordered and then drove off, but it really was for the best. So here I sit dreaming of ice cream.
I decided to ask myself why I wanted to impulse eat. Then I tried to focus in on my thinking about myself throughout the day. I was feeling down today about my left knee really hurting me and it made me feel discouraged. I started telling myself that there was no way that I could do a half marathon if my knee already started hurting me.
That is when I drove away. I drove away from the ice cream because I was wanting to overeat due to the negative thinking. I actually was able to stop and think about it. Now don't get me wrong I am going to "plan" an ice cream outing in the next week or so and I can't wait! I'm glad I had self-control tonight and decided to drive away.
Sunday, January 29, 2012
I Made the Bed Collapse
The Deaton's House: January 28, 2012
(Ginnie sits on the bed)
(Eric's head bobbles up and down)
Ginnie-"Eric don't bobble your head up and down like I jumped on the bed"
Eric-"Ok you did jump down on the bed"
Ginnie- "No I didn't"
10 seconds later...
a small noise
10 more seconds...
CRASh!! The bed falls through the frame on to the floor.
I don't think I've laughed that hard in a long time. I guess there's nothing like collapsing a bed to make you feel good about yourself. I've broken a chair in my bigger days but never a bed. I mean at least I could have been eating ice cream or something while it fell. The funniest part was that while we were fixing the bed, Eric was putting the wooden slabs back on. He was saying something to me teasing me about saying that I didn't jump on the bed and then he fell and split the wood in half (he was ok). So, I guess the good thing is that we are both eating healthy and exercising now and hopefully will be able to sit on furniture soon with out it breaking. This could get expensive.
Our bed works perfectly fine now though and we are still giggling about it.
My left knee has been hurting me. Friday was my rest day, Saturday I swam (my knee felt much better afterwards!) and today I decided to stick to my running plan and I ran 4 miles. When I hit my 2 mile turn around point I wanted to keep going Eric's route, but I decided to do the 4 miles. I don't want to injure myself by being over zealous.
I didn't want to go this morning. I was going to wait and go this afternoon but my sweet husband brought me coffee in bed after he got back from his over 5 mile run and it gave me the kick I needed to get up. I'm glad I did. It always starts my day off better when I've run in the morning.
Today was a hard day for cravings. I wanted anything and everything that was junk food. Luckily we don't have any in our house. It continues to be a fight and I don't know if that will ever go away.
The main point is that I collapsed a bed and ran 4 miles all in one weekend!!
(Ginnie sits on the bed)
(Eric's head bobbles up and down)
Ginnie-"Eric don't bobble your head up and down like I jumped on the bed"
Eric-"Ok you did jump down on the bed"
Ginnie- "No I didn't"
10 seconds later...
a small noise
10 more seconds...
CRASh!! The bed falls through the frame on to the floor.
I don't think I've laughed that hard in a long time. I guess there's nothing like collapsing a bed to make you feel good about yourself. I've broken a chair in my bigger days but never a bed. I mean at least I could have been eating ice cream or something while it fell. The funniest part was that while we were fixing the bed, Eric was putting the wooden slabs back on. He was saying something to me teasing me about saying that I didn't jump on the bed and then he fell and split the wood in half (he was ok). So, I guess the good thing is that we are both eating healthy and exercising now and hopefully will be able to sit on furniture soon with out it breaking. This could get expensive.
Our bed works perfectly fine now though and we are still giggling about it.
My left knee has been hurting me. Friday was my rest day, Saturday I swam (my knee felt much better afterwards!) and today I decided to stick to my running plan and I ran 4 miles. When I hit my 2 mile turn around point I wanted to keep going Eric's route, but I decided to do the 4 miles. I don't want to injure myself by being over zealous.
I didn't want to go this morning. I was going to wait and go this afternoon but my sweet husband brought me coffee in bed after he got back from his over 5 mile run and it gave me the kick I needed to get up. I'm glad I did. It always starts my day off better when I've run in the morning.
Today was a hard day for cravings. I wanted anything and everything that was junk food. Luckily we don't have any in our house. It continues to be a fight and I don't know if that will ever go away.
The main point is that I collapsed a bed and ran 4 miles all in one weekend!!
Thursday, January 26, 2012
I Forgot I Was Fat
When you are working out and eating healthy you expect to magically get skinny. That is why people don't stay with their resolutions. They don't see results quick enough. I'm not falling for that excuse though. I know eventually I will see results, I actually already do!!
This morning I woke up and was feeling really skinny to say the least. I put on my normal jeans and decided to put on a shirt that I haven't been able to wear in a few years. I felt good in it and thought I looked good...
Then I looked in the mirror. It was like a Thanksgiving Turkey trying to squeeze into a small water bottle. It was bad. Real bad. Does fat guy in a little coat ring a bell??
Maybe one day soon. It was kind of funny. I should have taken a picture so in a few months I can look back and laugh even more.
I've been doing that lately forgetting that I am still fat. It is a funny feeling. You feel so good and then you see a mirror and its like crap, the fat is still there. I actually think that this is a good thing. A good thing that I feel so positive about myself that I actually think I look different than I actually do. Don't get me wrong I still think I am beautiful fat or not :) But the fat is still there. So, it is a good wake up call looking in the mirror. For so long I don't think I truly looked in the mirror and saw myself as I really was, or the way God saw me. I looked in the mirror and all I saw was an ugly person who was gaining weight, then more weight, more, and so on, until now the whopping 171 that I am now.
If you weigh more than 171 and it offends you that I am talking about needing to lose 50 pounds then remember that we are all different. A person who weighs 125 could still see themselves as fat and ugly no matter what the number is. Also in the health and doctor world I am obese. So whether you need to lose 10 pounds or maybe 100 pounds we all need to look at ourselves as beautiful people fat or not. I would rather be beautiful and healthy opposed to beautiful and fat. So if you are beautiful and fat try to shoot for the beautiful and healthy, it is worth it.
Either way I am still beautiful because Psalm 139:14 says "I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well." My Father in heaven made me and I need to be careful that what I am putting in my body glorifies Him. I continue to pray that instead of relying on food I will rely on Him for comfort.
So there you go. Deep thoughts by Deaton.
This morning I woke up and was feeling really skinny to say the least. I put on my normal jeans and decided to put on a shirt that I haven't been able to wear in a few years. I felt good in it and thought I looked good...
Then I looked in the mirror. It was like a Thanksgiving Turkey trying to squeeze into a small water bottle. It was bad. Real bad. Does fat guy in a little coat ring a bell??
Maybe one day soon. It was kind of funny. I should have taken a picture so in a few months I can look back and laugh even more.
I've been doing that lately forgetting that I am still fat. It is a funny feeling. You feel so good and then you see a mirror and its like crap, the fat is still there. I actually think that this is a good thing. A good thing that I feel so positive about myself that I actually think I look different than I actually do. Don't get me wrong I still think I am beautiful fat or not :) But the fat is still there. So, it is a good wake up call looking in the mirror. For so long I don't think I truly looked in the mirror and saw myself as I really was, or the way God saw me. I looked in the mirror and all I saw was an ugly person who was gaining weight, then more weight, more, and so on, until now the whopping 171 that I am now.
If you weigh more than 171 and it offends you that I am talking about needing to lose 50 pounds then remember that we are all different. A person who weighs 125 could still see themselves as fat and ugly no matter what the number is. Also in the health and doctor world I am obese. So whether you need to lose 10 pounds or maybe 100 pounds we all need to look at ourselves as beautiful people fat or not. I would rather be beautiful and healthy opposed to beautiful and fat. So if you are beautiful and fat try to shoot for the beautiful and healthy, it is worth it.
Either way I am still beautiful because Psalm 139:14 says "I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well." My Father in heaven made me and I need to be careful that what I am putting in my body glorifies Him. I continue to pray that instead of relying on food I will rely on Him for comfort.
So there you go. Deep thoughts by Deaton.
Wednesday, January 25, 2012
Therapy
Today was a rough day to say the least. It started off well, but seemed to go down hill with each hour. Today I met with my CC to run our 3 miles after school.
Before we took off running CC told me that we weren't going to focus on time today that we needed to focus on something else...I thought maybe she would say something about my posture or another running technique that I would learn. But what she said I couldn't have needed more. She said, "Deaton, today the only thing I want you to focus on is being out here and that you are running today." I really needed that!! Normally on a stressful day I would turn to food, but not today. Normally I would eat a few bowls of butter pecan ice cream and stuff my face all night while thinking about what a bad day I had. I am now making myself hungry so I am going to stop writing about food.
So, she did teach me a technique: Even on the worst days, I need to focus on that I am getting my stress out in a healthy way. She also told me that on this run I was going to talk most of the time. So when I got done running I felt healthy and like I just visited with a therapist!!
I felt really slow running today and I just felt like I was weak. I obviously didn't think about my time at all, I was too busy talking about my bad day. At the end of the run I just knew that my time was going to be something completely different then what it was last week. I couldn't believe it when it was the same!! I was really excited.
It is amazing how every run is so different. That is kind of the nice thing about it.
Before we took off running CC told me that we weren't going to focus on time today that we needed to focus on something else...I thought maybe she would say something about my posture or another running technique that I would learn. But what she said I couldn't have needed more. She said, "Deaton, today the only thing I want you to focus on is being out here and that you are running today." I really needed that!! Normally on a stressful day I would turn to food, but not today. Normally I would eat a few bowls of butter pecan ice cream and stuff my face all night while thinking about what a bad day I had. I am now making myself hungry so I am going to stop writing about food.
So, she did teach me a technique: Even on the worst days, I need to focus on that I am getting my stress out in a healthy way. She also told me that on this run I was going to talk most of the time. So when I got done running I felt healthy and like I just visited with a therapist!!
I felt really slow running today and I just felt like I was weak. I obviously didn't think about my time at all, I was too busy talking about my bad day. At the end of the run I just knew that my time was going to be something completely different then what it was last week. I couldn't believe it when it was the same!! I was really excited.
It is amazing how every run is so different. That is kind of the nice thing about it.
Tuesday, January 24, 2012
The Best Workout EVER!!!!
Today was my stretch/lifting day. I am going to stretch as I lift myself into bed after a long day.
Ice cream thought about today: None, until now.
Ice cream thought about today: None, until now.
Monday, January 23, 2012
Tired
No time today to even think about ice cream!!
Today was the first day back to school with kids (I had teacher workdays last week). I am tired.
Today was supposed to be my weightlifting/stretch day. I planned on getting up at 5:00 am and going to the Y before work. I woke up at 5:45 but still went. On my way there I remembered that tomorrow after school I couldn't run my 3 miles on the treadmill that I was supposed to do. I have somewhere I have to be at 5:30. So, what did I do?? Coach Cori you will be proud!!! I didn't use it as an excuse, I ran my 3 miles this morning instead of stretching and weights. I can do those at my house if needed tomorrow. I am very proud of myself for not taking the easy route this morning. I could have allowed myself to stretch this morning and then tomorrow I wouldn't be able to do anything due to other things.
I'm glad that I am starting to see again how important exercise is in my daily routine.
Today was the first day back to school with kids (I had teacher workdays last week). I am tired.
Today was supposed to be my weightlifting/stretch day. I planned on getting up at 5:00 am and going to the Y before work. I woke up at 5:45 but still went. On my way there I remembered that tomorrow after school I couldn't run my 3 miles on the treadmill that I was supposed to do. I have somewhere I have to be at 5:30. So, what did I do?? Coach Cori you will be proud!!! I didn't use it as an excuse, I ran my 3 miles this morning instead of stretching and weights. I can do those at my house if needed tomorrow. I am very proud of myself for not taking the easy route this morning. I could have allowed myself to stretch this morning and then tomorrow I wouldn't be able to do anything due to other things.
I'm glad that I am starting to see again how important exercise is in my daily routine.
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